OMG this situation at home is so pissing me off. Really. I don't even know how to react or for the fact, act anymore in this fucking house. Yesterday my dad was pissed of because I called a friend to ask for Uni stuff just when he decided he wanted to start make lunch. And he was pissed off because I wasn't there asking if they need any help. Whatever.
My mom completely freaked out these past days. I can't believe I was so stupid to tell them about my thesis - stupid, stupid, stupid. Should have kept my mouth shut. Now she wakes (tries to) up everyday at around 10AM saying stuff like "Wake up, you have your thesis to write down." Oh my God, and it's pissing me off. What I want to say to her is something like "Where have you been all my University life for the past 4 years? N-O-W-H-E-R-E. The only thing you've told me was that anyway I was going to fail. And now at the last step you want to take some credits of God knows what?" Fuck that mom, no. I don't need you to stress me even more.
I mean, I am stressed enough with myself. I have 2 weeks left and I've been trying to work something in the past three days and all I've managed was being on facebook and youtube for hours. I have no motivation and no will to start. I know I need to hurry a bit but hell, it's difficult to put my shit together and start writing it down. I have enough stress from myself, I don't need other's too.
Today at lunch I just ask why are we preparing lunch 1 hour and a half earlier and she's pissed off. And I am like "you know what, whatever. Be pissed, I don't care."
But the whole point is.. what the hell is wrong with these people?! They are all pissed off all the time, or angry at the whole world, and God forbid I am in a good mood. Wtf? I hate this.
Anyone still wonders why I want to leave the county?
Don't you know? Wonder dies.
