The Edge of Never #1
by J.A. Redmerski
by J.A. Redmerski
Published on November 15th 2012
Twenty-year-old Camryn Bennett thought she knew exactly where her life was going. But after a wild night at the hottest club in downtown Raleigh, North Carolina, she shocks everyone-including herself-when she decides to leave the only life she's ever known and set out on her own. Grabbing her purse and her cell phone, Camryn boards a Greyhound bus ready to find herself. Instead, she finds Andrew Parrish.
Sexy and exciting, Andrew lives life like there is no tomorrow. He persuades Camryn to do things she never thought she would and shows her how to give in to her deepest, most forbidden desires. Soon he becomes the center of her daring new life, pulling love and lust and emotion out of her in ways she never imagined possible. But there is more to Andrew than Camryn realizes. Will his secret push them inseparably together-or destroy them forever?
- Goodreads.com description
I've been thinking about this book a lot for the past couple of months and I decided I ought to it, to write a proper review. I loved this book with a passion I don't really know if I will be able to describe, but I'll do my best to try. And I will include a lot of quotes, because they are just too important to me, to left them out of this review.
Camryn. Sweet girl. Preceptive girl. Very different. She has a way of thinking that was just so deep. I connected with her from the first pages. I felt her pain, her thinking, her everything. She kind of reminded me of me. And seeing her struggling with the same questions that I usually struggle with, well that was just amazing.
Andrew. You were that someone, if I am completely honest with myself, I've been waiting my whole life for. And I'll probably need to wait some more, but if you someday really will come alone, I don't mind the wait at all. Andrew is incredible. He is one of those guys that want from you to be honest, even if what you want to say is scaring the shit out of you. The one who pushes you to the edge, that wants the best of you, that you could possible be. I admired that, and in my heart still hope that one day I will meet a person who will push me to be the person who I always wanted to be. And in the same time loves me for who I am. Yes, this is what I want.
The roadtrip was fantastic! I loved reading about all the adventures that the two of them faced along the way. And the writing was absolutely beautiful. I couldn't get enough of it! Sleep, food, anything really, wasn't important while reading this book. I wanted it to go on for forever. <3
The Edge of Never is an amazing book which will leave you completely drained - because hell, what a roller-coaster of emotions! But it will also leave you filled with hope for the future. Because no matter what, there is a light in the end of the tunnel.
So, if you are looking for a New Adult book, filled with romance, roadtrips, discovering yourself, finding yourself on the way, and wanting to believe in love again and all this filled with sweet and perfect steamy scenes, then The Edge of Never is the perfect book for you!
I gaze toward the wall briefly, thinking about it. So often I sit around and think about life and wonder about every possible aspect of it. I wonder what the hell I'm doing here. Even right now. In this coffee shop with this girl I've known practically all my life. Yesterday I thought about why I felt the need to get up at exactly the same times as the day before and do everything like I did the day before. Why? What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?
Parents have this twisted belief that anyone under the age of about twenty simply can't know what love is, like the age to love is assessed in the same way the law assesses the legal age to drink. They think that the 'emotional growth' of a teenager's mind is too underdeveloped to understand love, to know if it's 'real' or not.
That's completely asinine.
Those girls at school had no idea what it really means to be depressed.
It's not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that's so powerful that you can't feel anything anymore, that's when you start to feel like you're going crazy.
I'm alone again. Over a thousand miles away from home. No direction, no purpose, no goals other than to find myself on this journey I never imagined I could bring myself to begin. And I'm scared. But I have to do this. I have to because I need this time alone, away from everything back home which brought me here in the first place.
And then out of nowhere, the answers just come:
"No one wants to do what I want to do," I say and my explanation begins to unfold more quickly now that I feel more confident in the answer. "Just like with living free and not taking the ordinary route, y'know? No one wants to step out of their comfort zone to do that with me because it's not something most people do. I was afraid to tell my parents I didn't want to go to college because that's what they expected me to do. I accepted a job at a department store because my mom expected it to fulfill me in some way. I went with my mom every Saturday to visit my brother in prison because she expected me to do, because he's my brother and I should want to see him even though I didn't. Natalie relentlessly tried to hook me up with guys because she thought it was abnormal that I was single.
I think I've been afraid most of my life to be myself."
